My family

My family

Monday, April 27, 2009

Ringside Master!!!

Some days, I feel like a ringside master, settling little arguments the kids are having. This one is not sharing, that one scratched the other one, this one wants the same as someone else got for a snack, tattling, and the list could go on. And I realize this goes along with the lesson God has been teaching me! Sometimes we look at other people and think what they have is so perfect, and we want what they have! Five minutes later, we are wanting something else. And then I force them to apologize, hug each other, and so on. Yesterday, God spoke to my heart and reassured me that he would take out their "stony" heart and give them a heart of flesh. And he will make their thoughts and purposes line up with His, if I will ask him and put my trust in what he has done for them! This is much easier than being a ringside leader! Oh, how easy our life in God has been made for us! Last night I went to a birthday party (40) of one of my classmates, and when I returned home, my children were all sitting together on the floor, even my 18 yr. old, looking like little angels. I realized when God gives us revelation of something, it starts to manifest in our lives. I love how "simple" God is!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

HE amazes me!

I am still surprised at how God amazes me! Today I stumbled upon a revelation that blew me away! I saw a man I knew at the drive-thru at the bank. I cut his hair and the thought came to me, he has a wife who suddenly became ill, and she is disabled in a wheel chair now. The thought was that his marriage is not exactly what he thought it would be either and that man lives out his everyday life devoted to his wife. And I realized that even though this thought is honest and real, the enemy tries to take things like this and make us feel guilty for wanting things to be worked out in our life. Guilt is such a powerful thing that Satan uses in our lives to hinder our hope. Romans 8:24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? That question right there amazes me! Who hopes for what he already has? So don't let anything or anyone let you lose all hope. Because faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. (Heb. 11:1) We see someone going through something we think may be worse than what we have and sometimes we feel like we shouldn't be expecting God to work out anything for us! He wants good for us and them!!!!! Amen!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Excited about God!

Somedays I am just so surprised at how excited God makes me feel! I just can't help but know that he has wonderful things in store for us! So many people around me have needs only God can meet and I am just EXCITED when I think about how and what he is gonna do in their lives. I am so thankful for what he is showing me. I asked God today to help me believe for myself as much as I do for others. By this, I mean, it is so easy for us to see that God wants to bless others, but when it comes to ourselves, well, maybe I should speak for myself, but I get in the way of my blessing. I look at myself! Me, myself, and I have nothing to do with my blessing, it is all Jesus and what he did that earns my blessing. I could just thump thump thump myself in the head a hundred thousand times to remind myself! Well, today I am just asking God to reveal to me what that number one thing is that keeps me from seeing myself the way God sees me! I love everyone God has put in my life and my personality is just the kind that wants to give so much of myself that I wear myself out sometimes. God is helping me with that! I just want a front row seat when people receive their blessing, I love that!! I am so thankful for all the blessings I have seen in others lately! Help me see myself in Christ!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Resurrection Sunday

Well, after the Easter weekend I had, Monday is truly a Monday! I had such a wonderful experience this weekend. I am seeing friends and family truly come to know the love that our Lord Jesus came to the earth to show to us! My Pastor gave one of the most powerful and wonderful messages I have ever heard! He told us how God humbled himself and came to our level to show his love for us, he truly pursued us! My family enjoyed a wonderful dinner together at Fairview Farms and my friend Michael joined us, he is such a great young man, full of life! He is like a little brother! I am amazed at the work God is doing in this family and watching him work in others also! I am asking him today to show me more, I need more of his love, his truth, his guidance, basically, everything he has for me! I am sure there is so much more than I already know!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Wow, what a day!

All I can say, is wow, another day at home with my kids. They are on spring break this week and I am loving that I took another day off to be with them. I will be back in the working (real) world tomorrow. I love my job so that is good, but it is so nice to have a few day to yourself! My son is finally feeling better, what a long sickness that drug out to be.

Today, I have so many thoughts about how good God is and I am loving the wisdom he is giving me. How easy it is to forget day to day the path the Lord has laid for us. I have been trying to finish painting my boys' room for about 2 weeks now and other stuff has gotten in the way and I am really starting to see the "rest" God has given me in areas I never had before. I used to be one of those people that when I wanted something done, I wanted it done now! Oh how I have become so much more relaxed in that area. It will still be there tomorrow waiting to be painted. My boys will be excited when it is done. I am just doing what I can do, from day to day, nowadays, and that, my friends, is victory. I am a people pleaser, busy-body type of person, so God is really setting me free and I never realized it was happening when he did it. So I am not going to label myself that way anymore, I am a relaxed, getter-done when I getter-done kinda girl, now, and thank you, Jesus!

A friend of mine was over tonight and was gonna help me and I viewed a Lifehouse skit video from youtube on facebook and sent it to my daughter, me and my friend were sitting at the table and I heard her play it so I told this person to watch, this person has been holding stuff in for so long, they started bawling, and it was a good cry! That video had so much truth and the people were dancing to a song and just showing the truth of our Lord! Me and my daughter, Sydney, were crying then too, it felt so good to see all of us could see the truth of things that keep us from God. I am so excited about the truth God is showing me! I am looking forward to tomorrow to get a new drink of water! Have a good day!

Monday, April 6, 2009

I Have Victory!

When I think of victory, I think about cheers as a young girl, to win a game or something! But today I was enlightened with the revelation that I have victory in every area of my life. Now, whether I am walking in that victory or not is the question.

When I think about everything God has done for me by sending His Son, I am amazed, and I am still incapable of seeing it all. Day by day, he shows me more and more. Today someone taught me a prescribed order of victory and it goes like this:
Focus: Jesus Christ (John 14:6)
Object of Faith: The Cross of Christ (Romans 6:3-5)
Power Source: Holy Spirit (Romans 8:1-2,11)
Results: VICTORY (Romans 6:14) one of my favorite scriptures!

Our other options goes like this:
Focus: Works
Object of Faith: Performance
Power Source: Self
Results: DEFEAT

A Christian who is dominated by their sin nature, which is the law, is the most miserable Christian on Earth! (The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. 1 Corinthians 15:56)

How this little teaching helped me today! I will now and forever only have victory because of Jesus, his power working in me produces my victory. Areas of my life that aren't experiencing victory are places where I have tried on my own. Believing I have the power to accomplish these hard things, as if that ever worked out before. I am left with thinking about several people right now, whose jobs have been eliminated, where is our help, it is in the Lord. He can give us favor and he says he will take care of us anyway! (Philippians 4:19)

Today I have had a victory in one area of my life and I know it is not because of me at all! My God affected the heart of a human being and had them do something that was in God's will, not for them, but for me! Thank you Jesus! I am plugging myself into the Holy Spirit and using him as my power source. I had fear the whole way, but with the help of God, I conquered it!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Reminded of My Righteousness

Romans 5:17 For the sin of this one man, Adam, caused death to rule over many. But even greater is God's wonderful grace and his gift of righteousness, for all who receive it will live in triumph over sin and death through this one man, Jesus Christ.

I was not planning to use a scripture(s) at the beginning of every entry but when I need word daily to speak to me so much, I figure I may as well share it with all who read it. Today I woke up excited for church, you see, once a month we have a family feast at our church and I just cherish those times. It is a time when I don't have to be anywhere else after a long work week and my kids don't bug me because they are having fun with all their buddies. It is such a peaceful time. Well, last night I baked some peanut butter kisses cookies and had some 2-liters of soda packed for church and was actually on time, and for those of you who know me, know that is a big deal. I loaded the kiddos in the van and after a hectic time of getting 4 kids to get ready for church I was on my way, ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I was gonna have a whole 1 1/2 hours of peace while my kids were in children's church and I could hear me some word. Or so I thought! My son started complaining of an earrache on the way to church and really tugging and actually hitting at his ear. I thought he was being crazy, never seeing him do something like this before. We got to church and he had tears, I took the kids in and he was still not well. I decided to take him in service with me and maybe some worship music that had some good truth to it may help the ear heal quickly. He did not get well fast, and after sitting for a song and the noise hurt the ear worse, I decided to take him to a prompt care. I called the Dr. on the way and they said go to Morton, the wait was horrendous and this baby of mine was in severe pain, I could tell! I walked out and went to Methodist ER. Someone met us inside the door and took our info and put us in a room super quick. My son looked at me and said, "Mom, I have asked Jesus about 10 times to heal my ear, why isn't he helping me?" Oh, the helplessness, I felt, I wanted to cry! I told him that help was coming and Jesus has already paid for his healing and he looked at me strangely, but with hope. He soon, was letting out owww, owwww, owwww, he couldn't relax, the pain was bad, and I kept asking God to give me patience. Soon the Dr. came in and checked him, he had strep throat and a real bad ear infection. We had been at the Dr. earlier in the week and Strep test was negative. They gave us some prescriptions and finished our paper work and we were on our way! Now we were at Walgreen's waiting for medicine, I call my oldest daughter who is at church and eating with my friends and I told her we would be there soon, she said, "I am supposed to go to my Dad's today!" I was about ready to reach through the phone, and well, I don't want to tell you! I finished getting the medicine filled, and it took 3o minutes and my baby cried the whole time, they had put some drops in his ear, but he needes something more! I came back to our church picked up the other kids and we came home to a very dramatic time of 4 teaspoons of yucky meds that had to be taken. Finally, peace came! I ran to my bible and I started this blog, am just now finishing it at 11 p.m. I had to think that earlier I wanted to scream at my 18 year old daughter who was so selfish for stating the fact that her plans were hindered, I had the same thought, but just didn't verbalize the issue. But God is right there, like I was for Jakob, just when I need him, and he is not disappointed about it. You see, he can be everywhere at once, isn't that cool! When I got home all I could think about as I was searching for a godly thought, was I am righteous! And God put Romans 5:17 on my mind!

And guess what, I decided to finally receive his righteousness!! Throughout that hectic day, it was easy to forget about it! I am so happy it is mine!!! =) And my son, he is resting, and I reminded him of his righteousness too!

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Controlling our emotions

Psalm 13: How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, O Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death; my enemy will say, "I have overcome him, " and my foes will rejoice when I fall. But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me. NLT

A good friend of mine just recently invited me to the blog world and I am accepting that invitation today! I feel this may be a release for me, Amen! There was a day when I related to the beginning of this Psalm more than the ending. I am so thankful that today I relate more to the ending of this Psalm. For some of you who may not know me or who are just getting to know me, I am a mother of 4 and basically a single mother. I have been separated from my husband for 4 years now and wow does that look weird in writing! But thanks be to God, I still have my sanity and my life has never been better!

The subject for my blog today is my emotions. Our emotions can be such a roller coaster ride! One minute you are up, the next down, and then you whip around a sharp corner and find a drop just waiting there and you have that sudden feeling that your life is being threatened as you fall and wonder what must be coming next. I was never much for roller coasters. Recently, a good friend of mine compared her life to this and I guess that is why it is still fresh in my mind. My life used to be such a roller coaster and these days it is becoming less and less like that. I have embarked on a journey that is wonderful and scary all at the same time. My emotions are becoming less and less apparent to me, but they are still there tempting all the while about what is true and what is not! Circumstances in my life sometimes get a hold of me, but not for as long as they used to, my God has revealed too much truth to me to let anything get a hold of me! A couple weeks ago, I was at a good friend of mine's for a bible study and we watched a dvd called, "Because of Jesus." In this particular series, A Godly Wife, God revealed a very interesting thing to me. Jesus redeemed me from negative thoughts towards my husband, and more powerfully, negative thoughts toward anyone. Wow, how this set me free! Lately, when I have a negative thought, which is caused by my emotions, I quickly remind myself how Jesus redeemed me from thinking that way and pretty soon I have peace! My emotions are affected by the way I think. I am amazed and in awe of how he keeps helping me in my daily walk with my job, children, finances and MY CIRCUMSTANCES!! I am really starting to see how much he loves me, just knowing that he knows these awful thoughts and feelings come and he even took care of that! Some days I try to get my children to control their emotions and then I remember they are just as incapable of doing this as I am without our Lord!

Even today, the Lord is patiently and ever so tenderly helping me deal with my emotions and showing me that they are far from what is true! The more truth I know, the less I have negative emotions.